I've been seing this line in quite a number of ADs here in Singapore, and I was thinking, who the hell is BJ?

BJ = Beijing!!

Hahaha, darn slow! The Olympics is just a few days away! I'll be in BJ in a few weeks! Hopefully... We're going to visit Tobal, I know I'm a little over excited about it but I haven't purchase my plane ticket yet. But positive thinking and a claiming that I will do it helps. Yay!

Talk about Good Karma. I've been going to the client a lot since I've started working here so its a rarity that I am in the office. When my week started I told myself that I will be in the office more, after all, my contract stated that I will do work from our office but really I just don't like not having a permanent place to sit on whenever I go to the client's office. Though I like being at the client's office, it reminded me of the old SPL office in RCBC. Anyway, my good karma came when last Thursday I got a call from our admin manager Cassie. She asked me if I have my service phone (Old Nokia model) with me, and my charger. But I left my charger back home but she said to go up in 3rd floor anyways so I did. I even got lost (hahaha such a small office and I still got lost) finding where Cassie is sitting. Turns out she was sitting inside finance office, somewhere off limits unless you really have a business being there. First thing she asked me if I was comfortable with a Sony Ericsson, well yes I am, my personal phone is K610i. And so she gave me this phone.

  

LAH is like lang in tagalog. Ah local Singaporean expression. I call it a sentence extender. Like Yes, Lah/No lah when you can simply say Yes or No. Whatever, this is not what I am blogging about. I am tired, my happiness is slowly depleting, but I still know how much I am blessed. But somehow these past few weeks, *sigh* definetly tested my patience. You know how irritating it is when you have a plan and it didn't come true. Darn. Last month I have a plan how my whole month of August will go. Starting with sarah coming here. Then meet up with Pads the week after. Then Kat will be here the week after that. I even asked Maitz to swap house chores schedule with me because I was pretty sure I'll be busy entertaining friends who are visiting during the weekends, and some plans during weekdays. But then things didn't work out the way I wanted, now I'm a whinny and sleeppy, cranky, antihistamine dependent biatch. Oh don't get me started with my itchy rashes, it flawed my legs! demmit. I hate it! I also have been drinking coffee. Now you know its pretty bad if I started drinking coffee... I become loopy and nutty. But I don't know how to fight sleepless-ness and over working. Life is sooo stressful right now. Sometimes I feel that I should just relax and be the easy going person that I am, but when expectations are set on me, I am just not handling it well. Oh well. I swear tomorrow will be different. I think I need to breath. Jeng breath! I'll be sticking a post it on my forehead thats says the lines in Avenue Q - Don't stress, Relax, Let life roll off your backs. Except for death and paying taxes, Everything in life is only for now!

Anyway, still I am dying with envy to everyone in Manila right now who will be watching the Eheads reunion!! Waaaaaa! Eheads are like the Beatles of Philippine music! but unlike the Beatles, they are having a reunion!!! Waaaa! And I singing With A Smile! Lift your head, baby, don't be scared Of the things that could go wrong along the way You'll get by with a smile You can't win at everything but you can try. ... In a world where everybody Hates a happy ending story It's a wonder love can make the world go round But don't let it bring you down And turn your face into a frown You'll get along with a little prayer and a song. Lift your head, baby, don't be scared Of the things that could go wrong along the way You'll get by with a smile Now it's time to kiss away those tears goodbye

Now this Eheads reunion brought me back to Meanies reunion. We sang Eheads meadley Xmas 2005 if I'm not mistaken. Anyway. This is us way back when. I miss this days.

"It is when we lose ourselves in God that we are truly found"

That’s the little quote found below in today’s reflection In His Steps. Sometimes I feel that I am not worthy to be called God's daughter. I do feel that I am borderline hypocritical in my faith in God when my actions goes opposite with what I say. I am sorry. I know I want to be a good person and yet I sometimes feel that how I react to things is not Christ centred at all. I mean, the way I react to things going on around me, how I do tend to criticise people, how I answer back when I should just shout up. Why do I always do it? Argh! It’s frustrating.

I want to be in my happy place, where I am not blinded by frustrations and disappointments. In my head I know I am still blessed being here, still happy even though I claim that I am sad, still finding contentment in where I am right now. I need enlightenment.