July 5th, 2009

But his answer was: "My grace is all you need, for my power is greatest when you are weak." I am most happy, then, to be proud of my weaknesses in order to feel the protection of Christ's power over me. I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and difficulties for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Cor 12:7-10)

I guess those who happen to talk to me personally or over chat or have read some of my recent blogs will know that I am strugling with work. I have been complaining a lot. A trait that is alien to me before I got here. hahaha. Seriously, I don't recall voicing out 'complains' this bad in my entire life. Its only God who use to hear them - a lot. Now, I have given people the the time and torture to actually hear me ranting. Blah blah blah. We all go through it... and its draining and tiring and feels like I'll pop a vain in my head - either due to work or due to ranting. I have been circling around the negative and getting stuck.

Today, I am not here to complain. I am here to thank God and let Him know, that I know how blessed I am. I get to fly to Jakarta, Indonesia and to KL, Malaysia all in the same month, with friends and family. I get to serve in a Christian Life Program (CLP), that I haven't done in a really long, long time. I am able to meet knew people in my life, learn to encourage and likewise learn from their experiences as well. I have job applications moving when the only thing I did was to update my resume and submit it here and there. I have my parents here visiting me for more than a week, which is nice because I get to eat home cook breakfast and dinner from work. I have my mom to tell me that how creases in my tshirt would show and she'll iron it. hahaha. I have people encouraging me to stay strong and do my work... I have to get out of my nega cycle. Breath In Breath Out.

I have some decisions make. Things that I am currently praying for. I know God wants what is best for me. I need to see and hear His answer through my prayers, and all this ranting will not exactly help me see it, right? So I need to focus on my blessings, do my work, breath in breath out. I will get through this, God always does lead the way. I might have stumbled upon His answer today...I just need to build the trust and keep on praying.

God places us in unique circumstances where our abilities match the problem He wants to fix. Jesus said that what we do for those in need, we do for him (Mt 25:35-40).
Have you found a problem? How might you be God's solution? God may want you to be an answer to someones prayer. -Julie Ackerman Link
By God's design, there lies in wait for you important work that no one else can do. Just as the planets find their paths through space, You too must grow to fill your proper place. -Thayer
When God shows you a problem, he may ask you to be His solution.